I feel like I'm wasting my summer...?

and I'm not even there!!I feel like I'm wasting my summer,because I have derealization and i dont ever feel alive,and i feel like soemone's controling everything I do.Everything feels like a dream to me!! I read about this online,and it describes how I feel all the time.I can't remember anything!!It feels like the day never happened!!i wanna have fun and feel like I used to!!My mom keeps telling me to "get it under control".But it's only getting worse,and she won't take me to the doctors!!I'm soo mad at her!!II've felt like this for 6 months!!Advice??It's only getting worse!
Answer:
it seems like you have depression. you mom needs to take you to a physologist so you can talk about this and treat it. she probably isnt taking you yet because she doesnt think its a big deal, so you need to tell her more about it.

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Try playing sports, working out, try meeting people. develop new hobbies and talents. Dont be afraid to be a little spontaneous and you will have the best summer. good luck.

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advice: it may sound silly but starting to write a diary can help! you'll get to remember everyday's happenings and appreciate them while at the same time you'll have sth to do with you're time... gradually, you will feel like doing sth useful and who knows? maybe in the end, you''ll come to realize that you could be a good writer too! i'm not kidding, this is how most writers start...

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